01/17/2007:
"Emotions"
There are some things, you don't know about me.
Lying in the dark,
It's hard to sleep.
I visited once,
The whole time she was sick.
Scared of her death while I was there,
Knowing it would be too hard to bear.
Watching her in pain,
Made me hurt myself.
Cutting deeper and deeper,
The only pain I could control,
I cried as the crimson, red blood dripped from my skin.
Thinking of her now,
I cry myself to sleep many nights,
While others sleep I lie awake feeling restless.
Not going to the funeral,
I thought just maybe she would come back,
So I could hold on to her forever.
Now I know she is still with me in my heart,
But it still hurts thinking of her.
I let my emotions get the best of me,
But in the end,
They are all washed away,
By the tears I shed.